After 10 years of marriage and 14 years of marriage, we are getting divorced. This was my decision after years of psychological abuse, lies, and recently I learned some disturbing other information that I just can't deal with. At first I hired a lawyer, but my ex-husband assured me that I did not need him and we could divorce on our own. We took the information here https://onlinedivorcewa.com/free-washington-state-divorce-papers-pdf/ and filed the papers with the court. I know in my head that I just can't do it anymore, but my heart hurts so much. The pain of losing my life I've always imagined. I take pride in how I handle everything and really move forward, but sometimes the pain is unbearable. Of course, I still love him and will always love him, but for the sake of my mental health and safety, I can no longer remain married to him.